This is the Beginning

I'm just going to give you the short version. We'll start at the age of 20. Yes that was 20 years ago but there's really not a lot to say about it. We'll start off with I was only a few months sober. I worked the entire time I was on drugs. Worked all the time. Had to, to afford it. But finally decided on December 24, 1997 that I was going to cold turkey it and get sober. So I did. Now it's November 5, 2017 so I'm going on 20 years sobriety. Not an easy thing to do. But well worth it.

I met a man soon after. Biggest mistake of my life. I thought he was Prince Charming, though. He had a job, didn't do drugs, had his own place and was willing to take the metro bus system to come and see me. Seems great, huh?

It was until 3 months later when we got married he moved into my moms house and quit his job. Great!!! The fighting started right off the bat. About that same time I found out I was pregnant which I wasn't ready I was just 4 months sober I wasn't ready for a baby. But there I was pregnant.

I told him I was pregnant and he patted me on the back and said "good job". Thing is he told me he couldn't have kids. Well I didn't stay pregnant very long I ended up having my sweet little boy three months early. The doctors said it was because of the stress and kicked my husband out of the hospital and wouldn't give him a bracelet for the NICU. He walked out on me 5 days after we found out I was pregnant anyway.

Well anyway, enough about that. After my son was born I couldn't go back to work for a year. His dad got a job again so I let him come back. As soon as the year was up I went back to work. There was many boring years inbetween that time and 2007. 

  

Needless to say my husband and I didn't make it. He moved to a different state I stayed where I am. However, I injured my back in 2006 and it affected my work. Badly affected my work. I had always had back problems but it was just much much worse. 

So, I ended up on disability after I had my daughter in 2008. Now I can't get a doctor to let me see a real surgeon to get an actual opinion on my back again. So, I've started selling online hoping to make enough to get off medicade and pay for my own doctor and get a truthful non insurance opinion and if I need surgery then I could pay for it. 

So that is a little bit about me. My name is Crystal. I am a chronic pain suffer and I won't take narcotics and medical marijuana isn't legal in my state so i'm in pain all day every day.